Thursday, September 16, 2010

Blessing or Curse?

Blessings or curses...sometimes they can be one and the same. My addiction, once a curse, but now a blessing because I have learned so much from it. When I was struggling with the demon, it was a curse. When I was still surrounded by the life, it was a least once I started to get clean. But, now, a million miles away from it all in mind, body, and spirit, I like to think of it as a blessing. I am blessed to really know who I am. I am blessed to know what not to do. I am blessed to know where my boundaries and limitations are. I am blessed because if my son ever gets into this shit...I will know it. I am blessed because it has given me a lot of good stories to tell, which is something every writer needs.
My kindness, willingness to help others...a curse? or a blessing? Again, I think it can be both. I am too nice to people who take advantage of me. I am willing to help anyone out, so I can easily get used. But, willingness to help has saved the life of a friend. My willingness to trust, and to give what I can has kept another person clean...and has kept a mother near her child. So, I ask myself, is it a blessing, or a curse...I like to think a blessing. I must keep the faith, and believe that everything I do really does come back threefold.


  1. I know this sounds trite but I wish your blog site had a "Like" button. You are doing some great work and will probably end up being the coolest mom amongst your son's friends (and for your son too) as he grows up. Keep up the good works.

  2. Life is a series of events.

    The blessing or curse is whether we learn from them or not. It is a blessing when I am able to learn from an experience, good or bad. A curse is when I learn nothing and blame others.