Thursday, August 19, 2010

Leaving

Just a little update on my life...I was left to run screaming from an abusive situation, so long in the making that my mind had become, twisted...twisted and turned all around, creating a loop around myself sounding off like a fucking broken record. A mind fuck, for someone who was already fucked enough.

But, do not mess with my fucking kid, I warn you. Or there will be hell to pay. Mess with my kid and it is all over.

I finally had the strength and conviction to walk away from a bad situation that spiraled into something worse. This time it had nothing to do with drugs, as I walked away from the father of my child as he crossed the line. It is harder than I ever imagined to do it on my own. It is hard to take care of such a tiny little soul all by myself. But, it is liberating to be free. And it is heaven to feel safe. It is motivating, and I am determined to be a raving success...for my son. I KNOW I AM DOING THE RIGHT THING...

6 comments:

  1. wish i had time to say something more, but for now,

    peace, love and happiness...

    sickgirl

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  2. I've done this. I became a better, stronger person for having had the courage. I never looked back. We came out OK. I'm sure you'll be better off for it.

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  3. I wish you the best in this new chapter in your and your son's life. Safety comes first when it comes to our children. They deserve to be raised in a safe and caring and nurturing environment. May God bless you.

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  4. You are absolutely doing the right thing for yourself and for your son. Stay strong and courageous. You have what it takes to get through this and any other challenge life throws at you (just look at all you've been through already!). You're son is lucky to have a mom who can see the right thing to do and then do it.

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  5. It takes amazing strength to leave a situation like that. Congratulations on putting yourself and most importantly your child above anything else.

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  6. I know you don't necessarily need validation for your decision,but I want to say you did absolutely the right thing. Even if he was never abusive toward you kid, when a child has to watch one parent abuse the other it is devastating(I know form personal experience). I am sure you will be a wonderful parent and model positive behaviors for you kid and have positive male role models in the future to help him see what it is to be a real man. Just keep up being good, and I am so proud of you for having your head on straight and knowing what true priorities are!!!

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